I’m still upset about how you’ve forsaken me. For letting me be hurt, for the pain I have avoided for far too long. For letting me shed all the tears I have in my body. For that night I cried myself to sleep. I still forgive you though. I know you have your reasons, I know that you know the kind of person I am, that this happened not because I deserved it, but because you wanted me not to keep too much faith in humanity.
I have one favor to ask though, please take all my feelings away. I don’t want any of it anymore. All the concern,respect,compassion, the love I have for this man.
I don’t want any of it.
Take it all away and bring back my old self.
Make me who I was before, selfish,inconsiderate, insensitive,careless. That way im sure I would never be hurt. Make it stop. Make me strong.
This profession made me emotionally weak. I’ve used my heart so often I already forgot that I am suppose to always think.
I’m letting go. I’m too tired to even think about it, so take it all away dear God. I don’t want this feelings anymore.
Make me want to wake up to another morning. Give me all that I need to live another day and thank you for it. I want to be happy again, if that’s not too much to ask. Make me forget all of it, its just a very bad dream. I beg you, take all the feelings away and let me be done with it.