Jessie J once told you through her song “Who You Are”, Why are you doing doing this to yourself? It’s okay not to be okay. Just be true to who you are.
This world is selfish, it’s gonna rip you out of all the good things you believe you have in you. Why not give everything to them, so you could pass away and let them live until the end of the world where all the misery awaits to unfold in a single day?
You are losing faith. Everything, no matter how small, doesn’t seem to fit in to place.You can barely hold yourself and your life together, why try to change everything? Every year, you look forward to that one day promised to be a better day. You can barely see it. Maybe because your eyes are clouded with tears every time, but could also be because somebody else has already robbed you off your own opportunity. You stopped appreciating all small acts of kindness. You stopped appreciating sunrise and sunset. That every time you see it, the only thing you loved in this place, you burst into tears of regrets. You regret that you decided to come back and change your fate, you regret that you came back to relive the bad experience hoping that it can be a better memory. Be done being here. You have to go, only then, maybe, you could be truly happy.
Your 2016 Self begging you to let go of things you can never change.