I’m afraid to let you go. I’m afraid that if I forget how hurtful it is to know you died out of too much pain, I will be absolved. I never wanted to be vindicated because I am so guilty. I know that there is nothing I could’ve done to stop you from dying. It was an accident. But I regret so much that I couldn’t make it easier for you.
I have come so far since you passed. I have achieved quite a lot in life but none of it made me genuinely happy. I know I would have to let you go if I want to have a peace of mind. I know I have to forget the feelings without fear of losing the memories If I want to beat the sadness that is slowly consuming me.
Maybe one day. Maybe someday.